Sleep

Sleeping is all I seem to do as of late. Perhaps I should check as to why...
I made a promise to myself that I'd do things... stop running from my problems... work things out... because none of that seems to be happening I've... failed?
Been thinking about things... not good things. Being blocked I've looked at it... where the problem is gone now, where Return can move on with life, think about other things besides having to worry about what the hell I'm doing... yet at the same time I look at it where... it gives us both time to think, a small break from the other and the stupid arguments.
A friend told me to do what makes me feel better... how can I do that when talking to Return makes me feel better...?

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Seems I've been unblocked... and I'm not sure if I'm going to say the right things or what.
Reminds me a dream last night. Not sure what I was doing... but I guess I was at the computer and, I have it set so I can see who comes online. Return's AIM screen name just popped up. Letting me know that, I was unblocked and I hoped that things would be alright again. It... actually woke me up. I sat in bed telling myself it was just a dream. Eventually somewhere I told myself it wasn't just a dream and I went downstairs to look. It was just a dream though.
Yet now that I've been unblocked.. I'm searching for the right words to say.
I just want things to be better.
My eyes are red, hurting, and stinging from all the crying I've done. I don't want to cry anymore.