Just feel like I'm in the way...

Well besides wanting HKT, being bothered by evil people who live here, annoyed by some anthro yiffy freak... I felt like I did something wrong.. sorta in the way?
Showed Return some pics I did... one I also wanted to show IX but I... feel in the way or something. Like a bother to him, an annoyance? In any case Return showed the pic to IX, so he got to see the pic but I don't know if he really liked it. So I'm doing a somewhat... better pic. Most likely just gonna keep it to myself.
I'm worried about Return and his sleeping habits... eating habits...
I think I upset or hurt him. Asked if he was going to get some rest in, and that it would probably be best. Shouldn't be crying but I am. I didn't mean to sound like I was trying to get rid of him or sound rude... but that's how it came out and if I could change the way I put it I would.
Just looked at my hair.. more little white strands. Although they start at the end of the hair strand and not at the root? So it must be my eating habits. Forgot that I was hungry earlier. Oh well. Guess I really shouldn't be complaining about my odd hair color.
-.- I just feel like I'm being a bother as of late. I wanna help others but it's probably best I just keep to myself. Speaking of keeping to myself there are some things that just sorta... popped into my head that are now bothering me.
Hrm... give it time, my problems will figure out themselves and I'll be fine again.
I don't know maybe I should stop thinking about myself. My troubles are nothing compared to the problems of others... so why do I keep worrying? This must be self-pity so I'll just freaking stop it.
One thing though... I want Return to be well, healthy, able to sleep well... I just wish I knew better advice.
Today I have plans with Hane... she seemed upset so I figured I'd help her --
Just thought of something again.
I told Return I wanted to spend all day with him today... today being yesterday and... it didn't happen...
With Hane though, I figured I'd help her feel better. Get some of my own errands done as well...
Now I feel bad all over again because of what I said... bleh.
There are times when I wanna tell people what bothers me but I feel like... it's just stupid and it shouldn't be bothering me, why am I upset about it in the first place, keep your mouth shut and think it through.
So I guess from now on I'll just worry about others and not myself. Watch... this plan/idea sounds good to me, but it'll end up being overly wrong.

Randomness....

Told Vile I was worried that I had upset Return...

Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, I think I upset Return.
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, ._.;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, no one, just wondering if it is
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, o-o?
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Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Ackith
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, wb o-o;
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, ty
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Vile_mk2_deadboss says, *tilts head*
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter blinks
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, what makes you think you made Return upset?
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Asked if he was gonna go to bed and that it'd be best if he got some rest in...
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Then he sounded hurt? Must've looked like I was trying to get rid of him ._.
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, that's weird..
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, So then he just quickly left... I'm pretty sure it was just because he was tired but.... he turned off aim as well..
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, hrmm...
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, probably giving the comp a break?
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Shouldn't be crying but I am
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, aww..
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, dun worry to much about it, D, he could be upset about going to sleep cause of the nightmares too maybe?
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, ._. @ more white hair
- This is where I noticed my hair -

Vile_mk2_deadboss says, eep
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, I think I'm going grey ._.;;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, o-o;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, lots of stress...? o-o;
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Vile_mk2_deadboss says, >->;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, I do not like that test *punts it* o-o;
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, What test?
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, the reflections
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, ^-^;;;
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Vile_mk2_deadboss says, o-o
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, eep..
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, O.o
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Scary sn...
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, I know that sn...<-<;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, that's one of my sister's friends...<-<;;;;
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, damn...am Duo no matter what I get, oh well
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, <.<;;;
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, x.x
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Vile_mk2_deadboss says, you okay there? o-o
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, sorta
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, dun worry to much about it D, sleepyness does make one think weird once in awhile
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter remembers that one night when it looked like Return was drunk....
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, o-o;;
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Vile_mk2_deadboss says, is that when he was really, really tired?
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Hehe
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Yup
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, think I remember that o-o;
Dynamo_Mercenary_Hunter says, Some of the things he was saying was kinda funny....
Vile_mk2_deadboss says, ^-^;

I should go back and look for that old chat file... I wonder if I even have it... *smiles slightly at remembering*

Plans for the day...

... in 65 mph winds.
Fell asleep on the chair downstairs, woke up because of the damn voice "We're sorry... the number you dialed did not go through, please hang up and try again" -Phone tone music stuff- "We're sorry.... the number you dialed di-" Had to get up and hang up the phone. Damn MSN.
Well... I was already drooling. Bleh. So I went upstairs to go to sleep in my own bed.
Woke up around... oh... 11-ish due to the strange sounds outside my window. Went back to sleep. Had weird ass dreams, things weren't making much sense... but I suppose that's due to the extreme sugar intake I had before I went to bed. Woke up a few minutes later, sounds still there. Put up the shade, ow... blinding sun. Trees only half there, oh, they're bent over.... O_O! Wow! Strong winds! Fun.
Went back to bed.
1:45-ish... woke up to someone talking. Thought it was a dream. Oh, it's Hane standing in my doorway. Oops slept in.
So we finally went to go do stuff... went to Pizza Hut for lunch. Good idea! Wrong. We were just you know, talking about the dumbest things. Some Native American family comes in as well, sits down to the table next to us. Now... apparently somewhere Hane and I scared them? They actually picked up their stuff and moved to a different location of the restaurant. That bothered me some. They even looked at us funny.
Then I hit my head on the back of the restaurant seat booth things... damn that hurt.
Bought some more pixie stix, went to Hallmark to buy Rock a freaking bunny... Easter and all, lots of plushie bunnies all over. Constantly watched in that store by one of the employers... I'm not going to steal anything you putz!
Went home, put stuff in boxes... damn the luck, I couldn't locate Return's plushies! >.< So I said to myself... they'll go out later when I find them. Taped up the box, forgot something... thank goodness I didn't tape it up all the way. Put that something in, taped it up once more. Uhm...
Realized I forgot the pixie stix.... >.< !!!
Lights go out every once in a while...
Not sure as to why I'm crying over it but I gotta stop now. At least Hane had a good day.
In any case... I think I'm actually going to go to bed.... wonder if I'll upset anyone...
Still windy as all hell and weird sounds are coming from the .... chimmney?
Not sure if I wanna go to bed... not sure what I wanna do...