hrm

I'm freaking myself out now.
What if I can't love.
What if I'm not a good friend at all.

Cutting my hair soon, making an appointment on Monday.
Gonna get it short, like... short short.
Doing more exercise, and yeah, eating less.
But why should I even bother to say this?
No one wants to hear about it.
Suppose that I'm just a lying, rotten person.
Why would anyone want to hang around me?

Bought some watercolors and some brushes and wanna expand my art skills... thought it would be fun yeah whatever...
I can't do anything right anymore.

I'm a failure...
Maybe...
I should just stop it all...
No one wants to hear me whine and bitch and moan about my life.
Things could be a lot worse.

Hurting those I care about...

I dunno.. maybe I should just stop ... maybe I'm just some evil person and just not realzing it but everyone else is. These sudden mood swings aren't fair to anyone.


Someone seriously needs to hit me. Soon. Hard.