little update

i'm so shakey its kinda odd.
my hands are also freezing.
one of these days.. i'm going to be able to open up a little more and speak my mind. but I 'm not sure if that would be a good thing o r a bad thing? I want to be able to tell others what's wrong with me, my opinions and the like but... I dont' want to hurt anyones feelings.
if I say nothing then I dunno, know one has to worry, right?
little update to my website.. if anyone really cares enough to go look
but I want to be more open, have a little chat here and there with someone, offer help where and when i can.. but when it actually happens, I'm at a loss of what to say or do.
am I just pathetic? wishful thinking or the like?
I don't want to be hiding in the corners forever and watch things happen.. I want to be a part of things as well.. I just don't act.
guess that's one thigns i need yet to work on
tomorrow hopefuly return will get a job.
and soon I will be able to pay my half of the djs from kura.
put up three auctions at furbid total sometime ago.. adn all three had a bidder.
just need to do more work, make myself better.
wish at times my art could be like someone elses, and there are times when i'm satified with the job I've done.
maybe i just need a glass of juice and a rest.
tomorrow I also take my job aps in.
maybe, i'll get something?
saw some silly agrument go on at some LJ community, it was kinda funny and you could laugh at it, watching it go on. but that's just me, I'm rude.. and I apologize.
I apologize to all that I've hurt.
I dunno. just need a little pick me up.. maybe I can actually finnish a decent looking picture soon..? something that I myself like as well as everyone else?
I'll try that tomorrow though, need to sleep or somethign.

Slight update

Feeling better.
I dunno... shakey in the shoulders but other than that.. should be fine..
Drew two things. Even colored them with crappy little crayola color pencils.
Tried my best to make these two pictures look good.
Trying to you know, expand the things that I can draw... so I drew two anthros. An elk and a giraffe. Well... I take that back... I colored two things, there is another elk picture that has yet to be colored.
Elk are hard to color... in my opinion.
I dunno... just earlier I felt strange... it's hard to explain it. Alone, but at the same time loved and with company, and at the same time sad, and happy. It was like, feeling everything at once? It was strange... anyone know what I'm talking about?
I don't know what it was, but it made my head sick and my stomach, I started to shake and my typos were a little more than obvious.

When I want my art to look as good as someone elses, it's anyone in general. Artists that I look up to. I want my art to look good, nice sharp crisp lines and smooth coloring. I used to think some time ago that I was a good artist, but with the net and my exploring of the arts, I see that I was wrong. That somewhat disappoints me that I've been slacking off? Perhaps it's only me and my thinking.

But with these two colored pictures I feel like I accomplished something. I am quite pleased. Tells me now that I must stop relying so heavily upon technology... CGing that is. Even though yes, my CG skills need work.

There was no orange juice or the such in the house. So I listened to music and concentrated on my drawings. Meant to go to bed, but I wasn't tired, but yes, at the same time sleepy. So I did something that I thought would clear my mind, I drew.
It helped somewhat... only now I wish I could show someone the two pictures I did. No, they're not as breath-taking as others could do, but it's something that I myself like. That counts for something, right?
*light smile*

Giraffe

Lookie all.
You can find the giraffey here:

http://vcl.ctrl-c.liu.se/vcl/Artists/Raven-Dynamo/

At the moment the elk is being moved to the sketch section because of the noisy background. Kinda sucks when you draw things out on sketch paper, because of course you're going to have a noisy background then.. and it's color pencil.. Bleh.
At any rate...
People who just take other people's images without saying who the images is done by, without giving full credit, but just showing images like it doesn't matter who drew it... should be smacked upside the head. That's all I will say for now.
About that topic at least...
I'm hungry
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Figured why not and post this link here as well.
My Elfwood gallery all:

http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/r/a/ravenmount/ravenmount.html

I know it needs alot of work done to it, but I dunno what to draw there? Horses are a pain so unicorns about be a bit out of the question? A Kavu from MTG is found there. Displacer beast and Krenshar from D&D are found there. Hm... must ponder this a bit.