La la la la

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No one is allowed to read this!
Not that I can stop you all anyway.

x_x

I'm sick.. again.
Got work in the morning at 7:30.
*Shrugs*
Seems ND has another grass fire. Well, had. Not sure if they got it under control or not but it was all caused by a lightning storm.
Nothing too serious, just took out some small town... forgot the name.

Ergh...
Neo is gonna drive me nuts. If I don't wanna RP... I don't wanna RP. I might consider it, but doesn't mean I'm going to.
.... and why the fuck does she have to bother Return?
Oh yeah, and she hates Yaoi.
:3 Got a whole little explanation about yaoi... pointless story type of thing.
Or something like that.
But... I'm getting tired of this... competition she seems to have over me.
If anyone, not just Return... talks to me she's gotta do something to. =.= I'm not an object, your property, your pet... so don't treat me like I am.
Guess one of these days.... I'm the one who's gonna have to sit her down and have a talk with her.
First few days of talking to her sounded fine...
Then it got the point where she was rather clingy of me... and then bleh.
It's only gonna get worse?
I hope not.. =.=

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I'm tired but I'm not sleepy
I'm hungry but I'm not eating
I'm bored but I don't wanna do anything
So I snap at people
Right now I woke up because someone wanted me to and I dont' know who it was or why.
anyway...
apologies go out to IX and Return again...

just gonna sleep
I hate sleeping
I'm tired of it
I think I'm going a bit insane acutaly
so I need to go calm down

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Here was an entry where I was asking for help...
in the worst ways possible...

Instead... I had to help someone else.
My own hurt no longer mattered...
Seeing this person hurting, upset, scared... that was more important.
I had to try...
Try to right this wrong that I caused...
Whether I failed or succeeded... is undecided...
I'd like to think it was a success... but at what cost?
Could I ever truthfully live without you?
Could I ever truthfully kill myself?
Nothing else matters now but you...

I feel lost...
Empty knowing that you're upset... what do I do?