Treating people like pets..
Jul. 23rd, 2002 05:07 pmDidn't know I was doing this...
Guess that's just something that's... really bothering me right now...
Speaking of pets... guess it doesn't matter that I'm running upstairs every so often to check phonecalls, to ask questions... anything of the similar sort... so I give late, and I mean late replies...
That's my fault though.
Some might say it's not, that it's fault on both parties... but no, I should've said more things, I should've said what I was doing, where I was going.... or just plain old talking.
But my silence....
My cat was at the vet for something that could possibly be deadly and cause her to be put down. I.. don't even know why I was so quiet.. just waiting for good news I suppose...
Also found out my paycheck was gone so started to look for that as well.. and then all this silence is all because I don't want to talk to someone..
... I see now that these accusations or whatever are true...
You felt ignored... you felt like I was avoiding you...
That's not even something that crossed my mind... avoiding you... not wishing to speak with you...
I'm sorry to give you this impression...
...and I wasn't aware I was treating you like an animal...
So again... it's my fault.. only thing I can really do is.. apologize? Say I'm sorry... tell you what I'm doing why I'm doing it.... make it so you don't feel that way ever again...
Again... another case where I'm not thinking... damnit I'm such a moron... why don't I learn...?
Guess that's just something that's... really bothering me right now...
Speaking of pets... guess it doesn't matter that I'm running upstairs every so often to check phonecalls, to ask questions... anything of the similar sort... so I give late, and I mean late replies...
That's my fault though.
Some might say it's not, that it's fault on both parties... but no, I should've said more things, I should've said what I was doing, where I was going.... or just plain old talking.
But my silence....
My cat was at the vet for something that could possibly be deadly and cause her to be put down. I.. don't even know why I was so quiet.. just waiting for good news I suppose...
Also found out my paycheck was gone so started to look for that as well.. and then all this silence is all because I don't want to talk to someone..
... I see now that these accusations or whatever are true...
You felt ignored... you felt like I was avoiding you...
That's not even something that crossed my mind... avoiding you... not wishing to speak with you...
I'm sorry to give you this impression...
...and I wasn't aware I was treating you like an animal...
So again... it's my fault.. only thing I can really do is.. apologize? Say I'm sorry... tell you what I'm doing why I'm doing it.... make it so you don't feel that way ever again...
Again... another case where I'm not thinking... damnit I'm such a moron... why don't I learn...?