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I want something in my life...
That I can't have... because I threw it away.
I want that joy, that happiness...
I can't though...
I know I'm mentally unstable.
Right now I feel unimportant.
I never... meant to do the hurtful things I did.
Oh god I'm sorry.
I'll just... sit and wait.
I'll wait forever if I have to...

*plays with a ring*

I know what I did.. and I can't fix it.... I wish I could change the past but I can't.