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Heh..
You'd think that something as simple as a picture wouldn't have any effect on me.
I dunno... Sometimes I wonder about things.
... and other days.. I don't think about such things at all.
Strange how life is.
.... anyhoo.
Idea from my friend.
.... and no, I still haven't put the tree up.
I had plans on randomly ramble to get things off my mind.
But at the current moment, it's like... those things aren't important anymore. This is a good sign... right? I'm still confused about that....
Oh well.
I kinda lied. Right now I'm sitting here.. wondering why I am the way I am. Ya know? Quite a few times I've had the whole... "Is this a dream?" moment. Heh.. as some people might thing it's the breakup OMG OMG OMG it's not.
It's just... life in general.
Most of the time.. it doesn't bother me.
But there are those few times when you think about things. You have the urge to talk to someone, just about anything in general. Could be a specific thing... or just talk about random things. With me though... :\ Sometimes I wanna talk to people but yeah.. it's angst. No one wants to hear that. Or is it just me thinking it's angst? ._.
Sometimes I wonder... what makes angst... angst? I mean.. if friends were friends.. wouldn't they listen to eachother no matter what and not say things like.. "Don't wanna listen to your angst, it's enough"...? Or is that them saying.. enough is enough, no matter how much we try to help, our help isn't good enough? But what if thier helping really is help... but that person just doesn't know how to properly show it? Or what if.. what the friends think isn't helping.. is helping alot, it just takes alot more than simple words of encouragement. I mean, true, there's not much you can do online, but what about when you're actually there with that person?
._o
*rambles on and on*
I dunno... See... someone might point at me and say this entire thing is all about me and I'm just looking for attention again.
.... I could deny this but what good will it do when someone thinks this? *shrugs*
._. I dunno... I'm just randomly talk about things that come to mind.
What's on my mind right now? Trying to fix something that more than likely can never be fixed. Which in fact, I shouldn't even be bother trying with, ya know?
Not only that... what makes a friend, a friend? Someone who will listen to you no matter what? Someone who will make you laugh when you're feeling sad? Someone who will be with you through the good times and the bad times? If these are true.. then what makes someone not a friend?
See... my mind wanders... wanders to the point where I talk myself into a corner and get confused.
Sometimes it helps to have another person talk such things through with.. maybe that's just me, but it helps with me.
In any case.. *curls up for bed*
You'd think that something as simple as a picture wouldn't have any effect on me.
I dunno... Sometimes I wonder about things.
... and other days.. I don't think about such things at all.
Strange how life is.
.... anyhoo.
Idea from my friend.
.... and no, I still haven't put the tree up.
I had plans on randomly ramble to get things off my mind.
But at the current moment, it's like... those things aren't important anymore. This is a good sign... right? I'm still confused about that....
Oh well.
I kinda lied. Right now I'm sitting here.. wondering why I am the way I am. Ya know? Quite a few times I've had the whole... "Is this a dream?" moment. Heh.. as some people might thing it's the breakup OMG OMG OMG it's not.
It's just... life in general.
Most of the time.. it doesn't bother me.
But there are those few times when you think about things. You have the urge to talk to someone, just about anything in general. Could be a specific thing... or just talk about random things. With me though... :\ Sometimes I wanna talk to people but yeah.. it's angst. No one wants to hear that. Or is it just me thinking it's angst? ._.
Sometimes I wonder... what makes angst... angst? I mean.. if friends were friends.. wouldn't they listen to eachother no matter what and not say things like.. "Don't wanna listen to your angst, it's enough"...? Or is that them saying.. enough is enough, no matter how much we try to help, our help isn't good enough? But what if thier helping really is help... but that person just doesn't know how to properly show it? Or what if.. what the friends think isn't helping.. is helping alot, it just takes alot more than simple words of encouragement. I mean, true, there's not much you can do online, but what about when you're actually there with that person?
._o
*rambles on and on*
I dunno... See... someone might point at me and say this entire thing is all about me and I'm just looking for attention again.
.... I could deny this but what good will it do when someone thinks this? *shrugs*
._. I dunno... I'm just randomly talk about things that come to mind.
What's on my mind right now? Trying to fix something that more than likely can never be fixed. Which in fact, I shouldn't even be bother trying with, ya know?
Not only that... what makes a friend, a friend? Someone who will listen to you no matter what? Someone who will make you laugh when you're feeling sad? Someone who will be with you through the good times and the bad times? If these are true.. then what makes someone not a friend?
See... my mind wanders... wanders to the point where I talk myself into a corner and get confused.
Sometimes it helps to have another person talk such things through with.. maybe that's just me, but it helps with me.
In any case.. *curls up for bed*
