fuck part two

[dynamo_hunter_a]

so tired but kind of afraid to sleep
I mean I still have my job..
do I wanna really go back there though.. -.-
mom wants me to go
it's the right thing
so she says
well what's right and what's wrong then
looking at it.. it was the same fucking thing that happened at my previous job only ... they admited to being wrong
being in the military is no excuse to go off on an employee 'without thinking'
so yeah i try to distract my mind with anything.. anything i can think of and..
I just can't face tomorrow
if i go i'm doing the wrong thing, if i don't go i'm doing the wrong thing..
but of course you know what this is gonna turn out to be.. me thinking i'm helping them out by staying when in fact it's probably just going to cause me more stress mentally but
...
i need the money...
life fucking sucks and i shouldn't be crying about it becuase there's a hell of a lot worse that could be happening right now
I need a backbone
can't let people walk all over me all the time
bah...