Worthless Birthday greetings...
Jan. 27th, 2002 05:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dynamo_hunter_aYay.
Birthday.
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Hrm. Tad upset with some recent events and such. But I'm not gonna go and rant about how evil this person was or anything. Or rant on how I hate them for whatever reason, how they brought me pain. Possibly... every once in awhile I'll speak of how I looked up to this person. Not how much they upset me.
Today is my birthday.
I'm not with the one I truly love. It would've been... wonderful. I remember... months back when... I said it would happen. Reality check... it never did happen. I'm still here, at home... and I feel as though... I'm at fault.
Then again when stupid things seem to happen, things completely out of my control, I feel as though I'm at fault.
With the events that happened if people, anyone I guess, wanna go and point and claim it's my fault to make them feel better, then I guess if it helps, go for it. One shouldn't be miserable.
Never got what I wanted for my birthday gift either... to see my love. That's what I really wanted. I would've done anything... the one thing I didn't do was save money up, get a job... something that would've given me money.
Now that I think about it... not getting any gifts either. Never told anyone what I wanted. Well okay maybe I did, but that gift I never got.
The day has yet to actually come and I guess I can still see how this drab day will turn out.
Got upset at the fact I should've been sleeping instead of staying awake for over 24 hours. Got upset at the fact that I'm leaving Return alone. Again... I feel at fault.
Though I said one shouldn't feel miserable. I'm not sure how I can feel any different. I just want to spend time with Return. All day. After this litte party two friends are going to throw for me.
I just want to be with Return...
Birthday.
._.
Hrm. Tad upset with some recent events and such. But I'm not gonna go and rant about how evil this person was or anything. Or rant on how I hate them for whatever reason, how they brought me pain. Possibly... every once in awhile I'll speak of how I looked up to this person. Not how much they upset me.
Today is my birthday.
I'm not with the one I truly love. It would've been... wonderful. I remember... months back when... I said it would happen. Reality check... it never did happen. I'm still here, at home... and I feel as though... I'm at fault.
Then again when stupid things seem to happen, things completely out of my control, I feel as though I'm at fault.
With the events that happened if people, anyone I guess, wanna go and point and claim it's my fault to make them feel better, then I guess if it helps, go for it. One shouldn't be miserable.
Never got what I wanted for my birthday gift either... to see my love. That's what I really wanted. I would've done anything... the one thing I didn't do was save money up, get a job... something that would've given me money.
Now that I think about it... not getting any gifts either. Never told anyone what I wanted. Well okay maybe I did, but that gift I never got.
The day has yet to actually come and I guess I can still see how this drab day will turn out.
Got upset at the fact I should've been sleeping instead of staying awake for over 24 hours. Got upset at the fact that I'm leaving Return alone. Again... I feel at fault.
Though I said one shouldn't feel miserable. I'm not sure how I can feel any different. I just want to spend time with Return. All day. After this litte party two friends are going to throw for me.
I just want to be with Return...
