Anger to the point of non caring?

Feh.
Figured something would happen.
Haven't said anything about it, but because someone already decided to blame me for something I didn't do, why not?
Was shown an email yesterday. What was said in it was stupid on her part... how Vile reacted to it last night was stupid. I tried to be comforting, caring, but when words long ago said get twisted around just to make the other person look bad is just stupid.
"Rubbing salt in open wounds" has to be an old saying by her now, to me it means nothing anymore. Her immature comments didn't show much maturity on her part when she's telling Vile to grow up.
It was a constant bragging contest from what I saw.
Reply to it? Why, what's the use in it? Both sides are going to be stubborn and only do more things to make the other feel like an ass.
Hell, I'll say it now, they don't need people to make themselves look stupid because they're already doing it themselves!
That's probably just my own damn observation but I'm sick of it! I did what I could to show support for both sides and one of the questions I heard from both were... "Are you still their friend?" What difference should that make if I'm a friend with the supposed enemy?
Does that make me non-caring because I would like to see both sides? For my own judgement? It makes me sick.
Why... if things were going so well why start the damn thing up again? Sure, might've been just a friendly hello but if the other person is going to bitch about the fact... "Oh my god they said hello, I'm in trouble now what do I do, how should I feel?"... then don't even bother trying!
Just let it go...
So... because Vile showed me the email... what, does that make me an automatic target for putting the blame on someone?
Saw what happened last night. It made me angry.
I don't share files unless I feel it important enough to do so, even then I ask permission to do so! Because I put everyone on block over AIM... and not on pager, what happened? Did I look suspicious then?
Never assume things! Do you hear that Red?
Oh I thought because Vile said that D showed IX the files I would show the rest. WHY?! Why didn't you ask IX yourself if Vile was even telling the freaking truth??
Now it's... Red trying to put the blame on someone else. No one to blame but yourself for acting without asking questions before hand!
So now what, Vile hates me and Red hates me.. already know Zero's hated me for a long time.
Do I hate them in return? No! I don't! That's what makes me stupid. After things they do to hurt me, I'm the idiot who can't learn and who's willing to welcome them back as a friend.
But I can't do that anymore! What they all did, what the all said...
They're all so far into themselves that they don't care as long as they're proven right, even WHEN THE TRUTH IS RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF THEM!!!
I'm staying away from them.
They won't care. Hell, why should they? I was never their friend to begin with. I shouldn't even be crying but I am.
Vile and his... gotta make sure IX doesn't know about this because it's too secret and he shouldn't know at all. Oh, now he knows... well thanks alot D for making me look like an idiot.
How does it feel now? Now that it wasn't me who did a damn thing and you just assuming I did!
Red and his... it's not my fault that IX knows... because Vile said that D had already sent IX the file so it's okay if I just show IX whatever else, just as long as I'm innocent.
Whatever! I'm angry with you as well because if you had any sense before sending anything, you'd have ASKED if it were true or not!
Not even going to say anything about Zero because there is nothing to be said.
In fact.. why did I say any of this at all? It's not going to matter to any of them!

Note For Red

You'd rather hide from people
Get mad
Throw things around
Vile you too
I'm tired of both of you
Always giving out wrong information to everyone
Red, what you said didn't add up to what IX said.
What you said didn't add up to what Return said.
What you said to me didn't agree with what either said.
So learn to quit lying and saving yourself.
Go ahead, tell me to piss off. Show your anger at me.
Go ahead, toss it all at me.
I don't care. Because I know you never cared for me as friend.
You left so quickly you never bothered to stay around and talk it out.
Proving you didn't care.
So I'm gonna wait now to have Vile fucking yell at me as well.
Red's telling me to use my head because oh supposedly I'm not getting the whole story?
Yeah, because I wanted to see what was said, I asked.
None of it stuck to the same story.
You'd rather have people just love you even if that meant you had to lie.
So I'd rather believe a psycho like IX.
What did you and Vile ever do to show me that either of you cared?
So go ahead.
Run away and hide.
Just like you to do so anyway.

Try to humor things...

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