Uh.. okay then

o.o
I drew a picture at the oekaki for fun.
What was it you ask? If you didn't ask I'm gonna tell you anyway.
A little picture of Juno getting smacked by Dynamo.
But supposedly I'm "Kicking one when they're down"... the 'only' Juno fan left the board I guess because the 'popular' people were making the other 'lowly' artists look like they weren't worth living because they didn't get comments or little helpful hints or what not... well... at least according to the one who left.
6.6;;
It's not a competition or anything. o.o Some of us just draw because we like to draw. Yes, the same thing over and over can get kinda of... well, boring. Found that out for myself. >.> Looking over some of my pictures on that board, I rarily get more than 5 or 6 comments for the most part. But I don't really comment. Not because my pictures don't get comments, I just, don't usually do so. Most of the time though I'll say to myself, not to anyone else, 'You know, that's a really good picture, good colors, good lines..' that sort of thing.
This sort of makes me want to rant about something else.
TLK Fandom!
It's fun to draw all those big kitties and the like. While browsing through the forum, I was reading a question of "Who do you think will be the next artist of the month?" Read over that, the replies.
'Kaz, Kelt, Pegs, Pinali...' were just a few of the names I saw that seemed to appear quite often. A few more artists that I haven't heard of and will have to snoop through their archives.
But there's one thing I did notice. Not a single person mentioned my name. Sure, I do surprise pics, I do art trades, requests, the like. Was I bothered? Yes. Why?
Because it's like a popularity contest.
I'm not sure -what- they're voting on. Original characters? TLK fan arts? Style? Color? Amount of pictures? I can't really say.
So why is it like a popularity contest? I've noticed that the only ones who seem to get mentioned are those that are 'regulars' at that board, or 'regulars' at uploading. I'm sure they're all nice people. But what about those that are nice and don't go to that board, the ones that are nice and rarily upload pictures?
I don't know.
I could say it bothered me, the fact none of them thought I'd be 'artist of the month' ... because it really seems like they're voting on the most popular. The person who dishes out the most art. ._. Which is something I don't really do.
I look at the oekaki thing and I look at the TLK thing and realize both are sort of similar but not quite?
Not really sure but I'll stop wondering about that.
I'm just drawing because I feel like doing so. I drew gifts for people because I feel like making them smile. Not so people will give me praise and stuff like that to become a so called popular person.
._. I'm just attempting to be nice.

...

I don't know what to think right now.
Or what to do...
I'm in that state of emotions where... I feel lost?
Crying for who knows what reason.
Maybe because everyone seems to be sorta in a mood...
or something else I'm not sure.
I only know I need to improve my self image...
What others think of me...
I'm not happy, I'm not depressed, not angry, not stressed...
More like... all of them combined.
Seen things, been told things, not quite what to think, what to do.
Did what I could to help... but I feel like I either didn't try hard enough, or I tried and felt as though I failed.
It shouldn't matter how I feel, but what others feel... sure there will be times when you have to put yourself first... but I'm not that much of a friend if I only think about myself and my needs.
Not sure what put me into this current mood...
But give it a day or so and I'll be back to normal.
Normal as I can get that is.

Off-topic

People at TLK are starting to finally supposedly take the rules into action or something like that. TLK fandom... now what should that really consist of? Dragons, unicorns, neopets, wolves, horses? ._. All I can say is.. no. Crossovers though? Drawing a TLK char as a dragon, unicorn, neopet (don't really see -HOW- but just wondering), wolf, or a horse... would that be on-topic? What about a completely different character from a game drawn as a lion or a cheetah?
._. Ya see, I can see how such things are considered off-topic because there are no dragons, unicorns, neopets, wolves, or horses found in TLK. Now what is the TLK universe though? Africa? Does that mean drawing an antelope, rhino, elephant should be considered off-topic because it's not TLK universe? Or does that mean they should be considered on-topic because they're found in TLK?
So a random question also comes up. Wolves and horses aren't found in africa... but maned wolves, Ethiopian wolves are, as are zebra. ._.;
With all that said... original characters vs. original species. You have your TLK char, as a lion... but suppose your TLK char is a random species you've created that could very well likely be found in the African savanah? ._. Forgive me but I must say that a lion with wings wouldn't really be likely... but it's a lion right? So would that count or would it not?
I'm not sure but would this supposed off-topic related art include my little characters? Before Saskia started to make some strange copyright for her species the nox... which I had always thought was just a nifty name for RedXIII's species, I made characters, not knowing that... gasp, I'd get in trouble and look like I was making art theft or whatever it was that was going on so long ago. My characters were based off of Red, not off of Antheos. I mean, what... I could give Red's species a different name and try to make copyright off of that, but you know what? It wouldn't work. Uh...
>.>
*got off track*
Oh yeah. So would they go, not because they'd be more FF related, but more Native American related rather than African related? ._. Which brings up another silly questions. African related animals are supposedly going to be considered 'off-topic' because they weren't the major focus of TLK. x.x
Sure there are alot of other galleries out there, Elfwood-limited upload, Side7-soon to be pay site or whatever it is they're doing, VCL-furry art is okay but all the yiffy stuff is kinda, eep for the younger audience, Yerf-I have no clue, but I'm guessing they're really strict.
So you could upload those other things there, or your own little personal web-space.
But ya know... I'm just kinda of... lost as to what they're considering 'off-topic'... so at the moment I don't know if I should delete some pictures, or not.
For now I'll just sit here and ponder things. ._.