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So often it seems so easier just to give up and quit.
I try not to though
I try to make things better, change and when things look good I fuck up again.
Got a fucked up headache right now
Should be sleeping
Been trying to for awhile
Oh well, I fucked up there too.
So work is gonna screw me over.
Maybe if I stopped trying to change and just accept things as they are?
...all I see are the bad things.
...That's all I ever do anymore... I fucked up here, I fucked up there, screw things up here, and there, and wherever else.
People care, because I'm their... friend... and I fuck up again and say I dont' care leave me alone. I shove them away.
Then when I want help, no one is there, well gee ya idiot, I wonder why.
Guess this is more of a personal problem and I shouldn't really rant or anything.
IT's what I do, not what anyone else does.
Why... do I fail to see the few good things I do...?
Fuck this god damn fucking headache.